Boldness of a Bombshell

I feel like I will always miss you. And that you’ll be such a part of my life, my heart, my past everything. I feel like for a while I will sit here and nit pick at other guys without them knowing it and compare them to you. But I deserve better than what you initially gave me. My heart is just in a very tough place right now and I just want friendships but also I priase God for taking me out of that relationship with you because it was emotionally abusive and you didn’t treat me or lead as a man should’ve. I dont know the hardest part is having the broken heart and feeling it. Yes God heals..but, you still feel the pain and hurt.

you’re supposed to get me, understand me and it completely feels like you can’t. you’ve shown your capability of how inhumane you can be.

sometimes that someone would just reach out to me. to see how i really am. 

sometimes that you would see, how i’m here for you constantly through no matter what. that i take anything from you and i’m still here. 

but you don’t see that.

yeah totally sorry i haven’t been on alot recently! i’ve been so busy with the end of my senior year, prom, graduation, getting ready for florida all that yummy stuff!!!

well i promise to be back on here so no worries! sorry!